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loneliest boy in the world.

2009-03-21T23:24:00.000-07:00

you know when something is terribly wrong with your self.. when you sit alone in the corner munching away your lunch and tears came streaming down your cheeks.. something is broken in me.. something is nearing ending .. i can feel em.. :-(

to the happy couple in front of me.. stop staring at me.

to all the people who somehow someway stubble upon this page.. i wish you no ill .. please take away whatever luck i have with you.. i wish you much happiness in your life. i am emotionally jaded.leave me be.

To The King of despair and his 3 princess.

2009-01-06T06:08:00.000-08:00

This morning.. while i was moaning to my self bout how messed up my problem is.. mainly bout rearranging and getting ur life straighten up and of course never ending financial problem.. cant help noticing a heart wrenching photos of a Palestinian father, whose infront of him lay motionless and battered are his 3 little princess..died because of a tank shell hit their home (FUCK TO THE ISREALIS. WHAT THE FUCK DO THEY DO TO DESERVED THIS..)

..i was heart broken.. :-( i could never imagine in my life.. how the father felt..even the slightest.Agony and despair doesnt even close to describe it. problems that i had seems wasted and how puny it is comparing to what they had goin through each day for the rest of his life.. my heart is with the father and his 3 lil princess.. al-fatihah.

Some Photography - Pointless Joy

2009-01-02T07:32:00.000-08:00

Lil Miss kitty has a fren

Happy New Year Jackie beans.

2008-12-31T12:44:00.000-08:00

hello.. i always felt a bit down come end of every year..because all my 28 years of my life.. i have achive nothing.. new year's resolution are for show off.. u tend to go way of mark to wat u want to achive in that particular year.. maybe u work a bit harder.. and maybe u wont.. maybe u will be happy as a bee.. maybe ull be misrable moaning like a bitch..maybe u will finally have the greatest year of ur life.. maybe if u ever wonder if u gonna survive?.( gulp)

so goodbye 2008.. a year of self loathing , sloth ,unattractiveness, tragedy, empty pockets and full of dissapointment. Hello 2009 .. another year full of hope.

neway.. when every kids, john and mary celebrate with hearts contempt at the hottest new year gathering, bubbly, gigs and freakin fireworks. my last hour of 2008 spent lepaking at mamak with alip and his weird friends talking about marstubation and debating about seducing ur bestfriend ex girlfriends and favorite movies of our time.. i even bother to msg my friends,wish to them.. none replied back..i guess the chicks with miniskirt, the bubbly, the giggs and freakin fireworks hold them back.some friends.sigh.

happy new year amirul azmi.. may ur 2009 is gonna be a good year for u.like seriously dude.

Fragments Of The heart

2008-12-02T12:16:00.000-08:00

Miss enfant le terrible in mosaic

Female..i think is most delicate creation in these universe.. they are soft , fragile and have so much beauty in them that they break when slightly mishandled.. and so much strength in them that can make a full grown men cry.Come the dreaded "curse day" once a month.. she can be most difficult and mean and horibble person you can think of and slight provoking can be relationship wrecking and ..deadly . and utter words that breaks you into million pieces.i guess we ( men ) were never meant to understand them.sigh.

psh..watever..i love her to much.

btw interesting software to make this collage of photo mosaics. can be use for your wedding photos , naked picture or whatever memory that you can think of.its free.

credit to AndreaMosaic.visit here to download.

Some photo's - Everybody is having more fun then me.

2008-11-29T17:24:00.000-08:00

Aritgato Mr.Roboto

Where are the fishy?

Blue | black

.... : -(

2008-11-27T18:32:00.000-08:00

Only a Phone call to Death | Happyness

Considering where life and relationships came spiralling to crash and burn.So line up.and after you mrs/miss.. you look like you need it more then i do.

Some photography - Mono eye

2008-11-23T10:20:00.000-08:00

Some Photography - meet miss

2008-11-17T23:40:00.000-08:00

Its amazing what a lightstick do when captured ..
using slow shutter captured on olympus e520 with konica lomo filter.

Solace in junk food.

2008-11-13T09:52:00.000-08:00

i only ate popcorn for dinner.. :-(
gudnite u filthy filthy bolg..

A Symphony for the night of jembalang's

2008-11-12T21:08:00.000-08:00

ogabugaaaaa~!!.. koleksi para persatuan antu antu cawangan lombong puchong.

Ladies.. and gentlements.. welcome to the symphony for the jimbalangs.. where ghouls and ghost, jembalangs and jerangkung and pontianaks to pochong.. and some odd group of fairies , migle and party all hearts content in puchong.

Kudos to the organizer.. as an outsider opinion.. you guys outdone yourself.. from the show performers to the supportive audience to the kitchen crew.well done. i was having a blast all night. all though not sure bout some of the group constantly yelling bila nk habis..lepak la.

Thank you to all mawks friends who made me feel welcome.you guys rawks!.and thanks for loaning the HD dv cam 'man'.

here some photos of the hantu's..

Miss Pon Tiara Nangnak nama samaran susan with her redention of malam sunyi..hihi

Cik bibah malaikat maut yg jelita di apit teman.. lepat.

Pasangan bahagia.. Bang Dracula dan isterinya Mak Lampir.

Cover Vogue hantu2 yg jelita..

Some Photography - Mawk series..

2008-11-11T22:03:00.001-08:00

What's goin through her mind..

Blood and Chocolate

Engel

Ode to the feline..

2008-11-11T21:30:00.000-08:00

It's true what every pet lover's said.. Pet's have some sort of bond with their master.. they are somehow understood and connected through emotion and developed a sense of emphathy. A unique relationship i think..

in my case.. house recently rescued a lil kitten.. although not throughly welcome by everyone in the house..the kitten is gettin popular with its cuteness..everyone wants a piece of it now..

So story short.. been feelin slightly depressed and sad lately ( not anything to do with a minor dissagreement in ur relationship) (ok so it is) .. the lil cat seems to understood me.. it chose not claw and gnawing my fingers but just hopped on my chest.. make a ball out of itself and purr..

strangely.. it soothes me.. :-) .. ok gatal hidung now.. get off.

Some Photography..

2008-11-08T10:13:00.000-08:00

Fractal's of the sun

A Gastronomical taste bud trip to Strawberry..

2008-11-05T19:18:00.000-08:00

Good food these days costs more than a good massage. So where do you go when you want to tickle your taste buds but not terrify your bank account? ( yeah right) ( Syg.. do i sound like food critics?)

For a good hearty meal at affordable prices, head over to Strawberyy. Located in Pj is one of the very few food restaurant that boomed over the years with its good food and friendly foreign waiter services.

Strawberry serves a fushion of thai , indian and western food , which they have a quite impressive selections of menu's.. ( then again.. apart from the western food they have different kinds of nasi goreng dishes.. frankly.. they look and taste the same..

Hemalisa Muntawa ( Ema ) order Grilled Chicken with cheese soice ( sauce).. A nice grilled chicken breast served with rich creamy cheese sauce..

1.) emm ..Yammy...2.) end of carnage ..burp

Susan Hallymah Sadie ( Mawk ) & Rubiah Sulong ( Baby ) a top interpreter .. both order pasta which the restaurant is famous for.. a generous portion of creamy carbonara sauce ,top with chunks of seafood.. both recommend to order this.. and bring ur partner along as both having difficulty to finish em..

Seafood carbonara with macaroni..mamamia

whilst i orderd Fried kunyit chicken chop with rice and fried egg.. and soup of the day... i tend to get unlucky everytime i fancy something from the menu... it kindda suck.. the egg yolk was in my rice.. and the soup was tasteless.. otherwise.. the chicken is crunchy and spicy.. enough to give this an okay review.. but give it a pass next time..

what to eat..what to eat chiken lice .. chicken lice..

Overall.. Strawberry is a nice restaurant.. the ambient is cool and the food is good.. and doesnt burn much from your pocket .. unless u payung your whole friend.. give it a go.

Satisfied food critics.. ular sawa kekenyangan.

Sembang Dapur kak Joyah..

2008-11-05T18:49:00.000-08:00

Funny ..Of all the insults and nasty heart shattering swear words , we choose a " mangkuk" to be utter with.. kindda think of it .. we malays , we do have a nice arrays of swear words.. from farm meandering scruffy animal to a certain part of your mothers private's.. which is being heard a lot when in my school days... but to called a cooking uttensils..i literaly dont get it..

i guess its not ear wrenching as the other "common" swear words.. so .. i am mangkuk , and you are a sudu!! and they are talam and kuali too!.

later. you periuk.

rat a taat toille

2008-11-01T01:01:00.000-07:00

House recently being infested by rat( the lil one's ) .. running up and down freely terrorizing the kitchen and occasionally helpless female ( along ) and squmming macho boys( aiman ) who screams like a girl.They are 5 of em.. 3 are already caught and release them somewhere in posh residency.. hey sharing is caring. let them handle it for a change..

anyway caught the 4th one using the cage trap.. its a hassle to pick em up and drive somewhere and release em in the wild.. humanely so to speak.. so chuck em in the car boot.. and went to grab lunch.. forgetting that the poor thing in the boot.. where its like thousand degress outside...

im really sorry mousy... not a cool way to meet ur demise..
i guess the last one.. is creeping in the dark counting the days to bite my d*cks off..damn.

tiny baby

2008-10-31T18:00:00.000-07:00

heh.. this artwork always reminded me of you syg.. i love you so much.. credit to the artist i forgot her name.

some photo's

2008-10-31T03:42:00.000-07:00

bulubulu

2008-10-31T03:28:00.000-07:00

this is mawks and baby bulubulu studios. she does magnificent artwork with shoes.. visit em if u have the chance.. graphic by mero , photography by Berudu photography.

http://www.myspace.com/bulubulustudio

happy deepavali to all yindian frens and fiends.

2008-10-25T03:39:00.000-07:00

fetisha for blog

2008-08-31T18:22:00.000-07:00

Yes syg( saadiah syalimantun).. i did it.. i hate to admit.. and i admit it.. i like reading and prying into other ppls life.. its fun and corny.. and i write blog like any normal smug do.. i write blog that have sex in it.. isnt it fun?..

i love you so much.. i hate it when we get it arguements that has no point.. and yes syg i know... i am wrong everytime and you are my goddess.. :-) but i did enjoy provoking u time to time.. and u will get all roudy and say mean things..and i will get upset like sissy twat..and we cry..wait that doesnt look good isnt it?. didnt i mention that im penyibok hal org too.. yeah.

i have extracted all my previous post from my secret blog..( that i write stuff secrectly from u ) hehe.. a start a new swanky page like yours truly.. truthfully i kindda enjoy doin this..

later.

Some Photography - blue sky series.

2007-07-11T03:02:00.000-07:00

Look Up for Hope

A Nice day for suicide

Curry tree never look so good

Reach for The sky

Digital placenta in my veins.

2006-11-07T02:43:00.000-08:00

cant sleep... im writing some inner thoughts that doesnt make sense.. scribble it on the keyboard to be digitized to numerals alghorithms to bits and impulses on the internet.. this is how i expresses my feelings.

goodnite blog.i hate you.

giddyness moment

2006-11-04T02:21:00.000-08:00

Best day of the weekend to be Man United suppoter!!!.. tonite! they won 3 - 0 to bolton on home.. chealsky lost to spurs( haha) and arsenal lost to westham..(hoho) MU is 3 points ahead on top of the league..

personal thought..the side has change since beckham era.. no more scoring for fun .. all premiership team devour and europe's fearsome midfield.. back in those days.. it would be 5 or 6 goals.. A match.. its entertaining ..and thats wat football is all about! now adays .. its points and technical .. to make matters worst.. introducing fringe players like oshea and fletcher in the 60th minute?.. wat the fuck is that?.. god.. im whinning like an old grumpy bitch... in need a sleep..

i miss saadiah. gnite.

love me.. hold me.. kiss me.. kill me.

2006-11-04T02:17:00.000-08:00

Funny how love can turn your emotions inside out...

Tonight.. i'm really sure that i have found what my heart longing for so long .. a girl to fall madly in love with.. she is beautiful and graceful in her own way.. although she'll frantic-ly denied it.. she's loving , romantic , novelty ,thoughtful , fun , and makes me happy ...what more could a guy want in his life.. and the most important of all .. she love me unconditionally for who i am..my heart is no longer a greyish , dusty and void..with her i am a whole now. i am stronger .. i am complete... and tonight i know deep in my heart.. she is the woman that i wanted to spend the rest of my life to make her happy.. i love her very very much.with all my heart and soul.Its almost a year weve been together..im still crazy about her.. which reminds me.. i forgot when exactly is my relationship's anniversary..it happends so fast .. uh.. gotta find out quick..

blogger rodeo..yehaw

2006-10-31T09:25:00.000-08:00

heya blog.. wat do you know.. yep.. im finally indulge my self in the so called poser of the "hey look at me im cool and im so techsavvy" people who writes utter nonesense and gobsmacked their so called interesting events of their life.. to tell you the truth.. i always thought this as emm.. somesort of theraphy.. ?? if anybody ever stumble and reading this .. i suggest you seriously need to get out more often.right so ill be updating you from time to time..till i figure out how to fancy you up with glitterin pictures and all those pretty colours.. will updating you more often. you suck. bye.

Graduation from the school of hardknocks.

2006-07-25T11:04:00.000-07:00

Please give your self a pat.. u done it son.. a proud double diploma holder( wtf??)
Now pls take it proudly and shove it in ur..

to all the syaitan's who'd made it .. im gonna miss ur asses..

to all who didnt make it.( hakim) tsk. haha.

IDIOTIQUE

2005-12-20T09:26:00.000-08:00

Tremendous period in my life.. and i finally did it.. after a long suffering and abusing both physical and mentally out.Yep. finally done with it.My final year short film project.. shot on 16mm film.. though things didnt go as the way i plan..but hey.. kudos to the hardcore crew and the machais.. cant make it without you guys.. group hugs in the showers ..hey.

i wish saadiah was here.shooting it was a blast...plus didnt help though when hakim finish all the hot dogs.. and im the one paying for it.damn u hobbib.